i still really miss you...

ive been playin with vthis idea for a while and i think its going into effect which is fine for most people but to those of you that it does effec i appologize and if you ever decide to create an lj name then just leave a comment and i will add you. as for the rest of the people who read this and have ljs you should be fine unless your not on my friends list. just comment to be added...count down begins

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...and FRIENDS ONLY

so im in an updating mood but i dont really have anything to say soooooo im gonaa take the survey thing from paul who took it from chrissy. k bye


15 random things that you like:
1. Baseball
2. Video Games
3. KFC/Tacobell
4. Nexus
5. Bawls
6. Quiznos...they got a pepper bar
7. Star Craft
8. Every Stupid song R. Kelly has ever made ie/ Trappe din the closet pts 1-5 and you saved me. downal;od them now for a huge laugh
9. Free stuff no matte what it actually is
10. just hanign out with my friends
11. actually thr necklace i got from my paents in St. Maartin. despite it being from them and they cant buy me stuff like that usually.
12. takin pics at school, out with people, all the time as long as m dads not takin them too
13. Cable Modem
14. Shootin Pool
15. DDR/DWI

14 things that you hate:
1. being around my family to much
2. feeling out of place
3. shaving
4. trying on clothes that wont be worn until a future time
5. empty printer cartriges
6. being made fun of for being a jew
7. Carnival Cruise Lines
8. what you mus say/do to be consisdered a True American
9. that i bite my nails
10. not seeing people i wanna see for extended periods of time
11. being volunteered fo things i dont wanna do
12. my breathe in the morning
13. American Idol
14. Amercombie & FITCHHHHHHHHHH

13 Most watched shows
1. The Simpsons
2. Family Guy
3. Futurama
4. Boy Meets World
5. Malcolm in the MIddle
6. Sportscenter
7. Best Week Ever
8. South Park
9. Chapelle Show
10. Daily Show
11. Major Leauge Baseball
12. Seinfeld
13. Scrubs

12 Good bands (or artists)
1. Linkin Park
2. YellowCard
3. Story of the Year
4. Eminem
5. The Bealtes
6. Franz Ferdinand
7. Kaiser Cheifs
8. A New Found Glory
9. The Starting Line
10. Jay-Z
11. The Wonders (That Thing you do)
12. Green Day

11 Memories:
1. Laying in a crib when i was like 2 in maryland at my grandparents house with my sister in the bed next to me. (I have no idea why i remeber that i dont even no if its real but its my earliest mempry)
2. Late Night Starcraft with Seth and Justin, and more recently with Rick, Dan, and kevin
3. Seeing my grandmother at her funeral
4. Crying in the car when i found out that my dog was gonna be put to sleep and going even more nuts 2 minutes later when i was told it was done.
5. A tape Recording of Seths Mom reciting the 50 Nifty United States
6. Going to my uncles house in New york and being petrified that i had to sleep over in his like 4/5 story house that was COVERED in dog and cat shit
7. Calling my mom from seths familys camery on the way to KFC with his Enitre family and calling his mom Sue not Mrs. Grossmayer and having her love me for being his first friend to ever do that
8. My name is Paul and i like stuff
My name is Andrew and i like baseball
My name is Kevin and i like watching movies
My name is Shaan and i like Ice
9. Finally beating Kick the Can on DRR on heavy at 1 in the morning and then throwing up at 3 in the morning and being sick for about 3 weeks after that
10. Jew crew trips to Tomassos...everyday
11. playing tag in 9th grade English with Seth, Chris, Ben, Christian, Harmeet, Jack, Linh, both Tsygons, Adam Harris, Camlia, Blair, and yea...
and i wanna add one more cause its great
12. Having Perosnal Fintess with Chris and buiying our lockers and having the P.E. teacher say first initial last name to him and him going C.menz and all of us realizing at one that he has the funniest name in the history of exisitance

10 Friends:
1.Paul (the man i stole this from)
2.Rick
3. Kevin
4. Dan
5. Seth
6. Shaan
7. C. Menz
8. Jeff
9. Spencer
10 . Kux

9 Things you're looking forward to:
1. My b-day July 27th
2. Orlando with rick and Dan wendesday
3. Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince(July 16th)
4. Every Second left of Summer
5. possibly being in a play this year in school
6. Maryland
7. Ruling the school '06!
8. Fallin in love
9. Orioles World Series WIN


8 things that you wear (almost) daily:
1. Boxers
2. my PJ bottems every nite before bed
3. the terp hat
4. My necklace
5. Shirt
6. Pants
7. um...my gottee type thing
8. my perment retainer

7 Things that annoy you:
1. My new dog.
2. Constant talkin about absolutly nothing
3. Scremo music
4. Trig
5. Mydads constant baseball talk despite not knowing anything
6. When you find yourself watchin you got served not to make fun of it but because its the only thing on and you have over 500 channels
7. My sisters gay friends all trying to hit on me


6 things you touch everyday:
1. My Cell Phone
2. Computer Keyboard
3. My Penis
4. My Hair
5. Door Knob
6. My Chin Hair...especially when in thoguht

5 Movies you could (have) watch(ed) over and over:
1. Angels in the outfeild
2. Richie Rich
3. Little Giants
4. Alladin
5. Billy Madison

4 Fave toys when you were younger:
1. Megazord(power rangers)
2. This little troll thing i had with blue hair
3. Hotwheels
4. This firetruck i had that would fight m hess trucks

3 Fave Songs: (Today - this particular minute)
1. In the end - Linkin Park
2. The MIddle - Jimmy Eat World
3. Life of a Salesman - Yellowcard (its fathers day)


2 Girls you like (friendly, yo lol):
1. Welkey
2. Linh

1 Person you could (probably will) spend the rest of your life with:
despite all the people to choose from i think it would be my mom. we always get along no matter what. we got to baseball games, i have lots of fun with her at times and yea...next to that would prolly be my sister cause shes insane like me, well a little more then me, with the same sense of humor

so begin the depression. ok so as iver been told im a senior and 06 and all that shit but you no what really sucks more then butt fuckin pirates 3? realizing that you are losing a lot of really good friends, very soon, and thers nothing you can do about it.

although i really should have seen this comin and i did, for some reason it has just hit me and it got me right across the face, hard. i no that its just succession that if i am a senior this upcoming year that means that the people ive been around that were seniors will be leaving but damn. i have to admit something that is very difficult for me and that is that i truley enjoy Drama(the class and all that comes with it from school). i had been resisting it all through my time in high school until about halfway through this year. i started hangin with people like wolfgang and then doin actual this with the class both in and out of schooland i became close to a lot of people, many of which were seniors. so now after hearin people tlk last night im hit with a bit of regrwet. cause i didnt do anything before these past fe months and now its too late. i wanna hang out with all these people and just have fun but they are goin off to xcollege. and this isnt just the drama peoploe also others that i just got close with this year that were seniors.

so now im left with a kind of emptiness knowin that very soon they will all be gone. sure they will come back which ive seen but i no it wont be the same. plus some are goin real far and i know it will be difficult for them to visit. in fact some of those people have already left. grrrrrrrr. im just gonna miss all these people.

...and so what now? i fin myself at thje final stage of my "childhood". legally you are an adult when you turn 18. menatlly you feel like an adult at different times but everyone thinks they are an "adult" when they go off to college. for me this will happen simoltaniouly(sp?). im turnin 17 this july which means that the summer between my senior year and my 1st year of college i will be hit with being an adult all at once. so i want to make this year the best year of my life, at least up to this point. my only fear is that i wont be able to do all that i want. im at the top of my childhood and will never be here gain so i need to make everything comin up count. i cant be afraid of anything. if i think i wanna do something, this is my last chance. if i cant do it then it wasnt meant. just like me losin Mr. OH. fuckin pissed me off but what the hell can i do? at least i tried. i honestly dont think that i would have made a very good mr. oh but i got peer pressured into tryin so i did. i guess i was right, i lost. o well.

this year will be good. ive got great freinds to help me and im just gonna wing it. im gonna go for it all. get the grades. get the girls. get excited, this is it. good grief this year is gonna be amazing.


:::RANDOM MOCHAN MEMORY:::
today hils was talkin to rachael and we discussed the punishment room. her mom would lock her or melanie in there when they were bad and they would go ballistic. it was kinda funny to witness, but lookin back its amzing to have them realize that there was a back door out of the room and they didnt know it despite the room begin 3 feet by 5 feet, with a toilet. haha fun time

aiiight so today was a lazy day...or so i thought. i sat around and helped hils with her computer and then watched the girl next door. i love that movie.

then i got a call from rick. santa b-day...back on. so after gettin a car i went with cronin.

ended up bein, me, kevin, rick, wolfgang, santa, his siblings, ashley, blum, illana, molly, linh, alex, and some others that i feel bad for forgettin. so we all hung out. lots of fun.

me, rick, kevin, wolfgang, illana, and molly went to chilis at one point.

came back. rick ditched. had fun. did nothing. sat around singin songs, makin jokes, havin some pics taken, and yeah.

um...i dunno this updates kinda suckin now.

spencer leaves soon. thats pissin me off. he should stay for more of the summer. yea...i dunno gotta hang with the jew crew soon. k im done

ok so my 6 favorite songs in no particular order are...

1. Linkin Park - In the end
2. Jimmy Eat World - The Middle
3. Dr. Dre/Eminem - Forgot about Dre
4. Linkin Park/Jay-Z - Points of Authority/99 Problems/One Step Closer
5. Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue
6. Billy Joel - We didnt Start the fire


ok so now u have to pick 6 people who gotta do it... lets go with
1. C.Menz
2. Seth
3. Strom
4. Hils
5. Rick
6. Eshme

smoked a cigarette
smoked a cigar
madeout with a member of the same sex
crashed a friend's car
stolen a car
been in love
been dumped
shoplifted
been fired
been in a fist fight
snuck out of my parent's house
had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
been arrested
made out with a stranger
gone on a blind date
lied to a friend
had a crush on a teacher
been to Europe
skipped school
slept with a co-worker
seen someone die
had a crush on one of your LJ friends
been to Canada
been to Mexico
been on a plane
thrown up in a bar
purposely set a part of myself on fire
eaten Sushi
been snowboarding
met someone in person from LJ
been moshing at a concert
been in an abusive relationship
taken painkillers
love someone or miss someone right now
laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
made a snow angel
had a tea party
flown a kite
built a sand castle
gone puddle jumping
played dress up
jumped into a pile of leaves
gone sledding
cheated while playing a game
been lonely
fallen asleep at school
used a fake id
watched the sunset
felt an earthquake
touched a snake
slept beneath the stars
been tickled
been robbed
been misunderstood
petted a reindeer/goat
won a contest
run a red light
been suspended from school
been in a car accident
had braces
felt like an outcast
eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
had deja vu
danced in the moonlight
hated the way you look
witnessed a crime
pole danced
questioned your heart
been obsessed with post-it notes
squished barefoot through the mud
been lost
been to the opposite side of the country
swam in the ocean
felt like dying
cried yourself to sleep
played cops and robbers
recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
sung karaoke
paid for a meal with only coins
done something you told yourself you wouldn't
made prank phone calls
laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
caught a snowflake on your tongue
danced in the rain
written a letter to Santa Claus
been kissed under a mistletoe
watched the sun rise with someone you care about
blown bubbles
made a bonfire on the beach
crashed a party
gone rollerskating
had a wish come true
humped a monkey
worn pearls
jumped off a bridge
screamed penis in class
ate dog/cat food
told a complete stranger you loved them
kissed a mirror
sang in the shower
have a little black dress
had a dream that you married someone
glued your hand to something
got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
kissed a fish
worn the opposite sexes clothes
been a cheerleader
sat on a roof top
screamed at the top of your lungs
done a one-handed cartwheel
talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
stayed up all night
didn’t take a shower for a week
pick and ate an apple right off the tree
climbed a tree
had a tree house
are scared to watch scary movies
believe in ghosts
had more then 30 pairs of shoes
worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
gone streaking
played ding-dong-ditch
played chicken
been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
been told you're hot by a complete stranger
broken a bone
been easily amused
caught a fish then ate it
made porn
caught a butterfly
laughed so hard you cried
cried so hard you laughed
mooned/flashed someone
had someone moon/flash you
cheated on a test
have a Britney Spears CD
forgotten someone’s name
slept naked
French braided someone’s hair
been threatened to be kicked out of your house
been kicked out your house (for a few days)

so im back. it was interesting. all my dads family. i was with my grandpa, his girlfriend, my aunt her husband, her daughter, the daughters husband, there 3 kids, and my family. 14 of us on the "FUN SHIP"

ok so i dont like carnival cruise lines...like at all. the food wasnty too good most of the time and yea. not so fun.

so i predicted 49 fights between the family. and in line to leave i got one to hit the quota but then gettin in the car i told my dad the way he parke the car was stupid and that made 50 so i went over. damn.


um...yea real breifly:

day one:
Get on boat

Day 2- Nassau, Bahamas:

alrite. not much to dowent sjhopin then layed oput on the boat.

Day 3- At sea:
lay out and such

Day 4- St. Thomas:
Snorkeling with my cousins eddie, cory, and brandon and with stu. pretty fun.. lots of rum punch on the boat ride back. its nice to have the drinkin age at 18...o wait im 16? i must have forgotten when i was asked. o well

Day 5- St. Marratin:
oy vey. all we were doin was goin to the beach that day. hils friendsdavid said she had to buy me one drink. sincwe she could and i couldnt. i asked my cousin eddie, who had been given me alcohol daily, and he just decided t order it for me. long story short, never get shit faced with your family. you say spme pretty dumb stuff that they dont let you live down. yea. and you little cousins that look up to you start worrin about you way to much.

Day 6- At sea:
just hang out and tan and such

Day 7 - at sea:

same shit as day before. parents gave me this neckalce with a charm from st. marratin thats pretty cool actually but the charm that tehy said either means triple strength or sexy doesnt fit so i gotta fix that.

Today:
get off

overall B- but im ok with that and...yea

home now lets hook up and hang out or wutever call me or something. im up for anything

yea. im out

for story go to my last entry...if this doesnt work or its too big or something...the web address is

Hi quality
www.angelfire.com/scary/gayday/gay_day.wmv

low quality
www.angelfire.com/scary/gayday/gayday.wmv

(copy and paste links to web address line tihngo and let me know what you think)

ok so i went to disney world yesterday and it was the beginnign of gay days in which they have like an overabundence of gays there for a week. i decided to make the official music video while i was there. it can be found here...


http://www.angelfire.com/scary/gayday/gayday.wmv


i belive. it opens up windows media player on my comp hopefully it will on yours too. if you can see it let me no what you think.


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DONT CLICK THE LINK COPY AND PASTE IT INTO THE ADDRESS BAR OR ELSE IT WONT WORK. k let me know what you think. its important to me